I watched all of season three of "Never Have I Ever" in about 10 minutes.

Ok, it wasn't 10 minutes. But I spent all of the last two days tearing through it. Her journey has been hard to watch as she faces a similar struggle. Obviously she faces that struggle with so much more humor and so much better luck (three boys in love with her? Sheesh) but the message is still the same.

She just spent three years healing from the traumatic loss of her father. Over those years she hyper focuses and obsesses over a ton of things, to finally learn that are no guarantees in life and the present is a too precious to waste.

You, I think, sort of understood this message. I didn't get it until I was losing you ... and by then I was also missing out on the present as well.

In a condensed three season show we watch her grieve for three years. But while grieving she's surrounded by a supportive and loving family, amazing friends, multiple romantic interests, a wise therapist, and even educators that constantly seek to both push and protect her. I had none of that as a teen and have none of that now. Between those points I had you.

So while I understand how crucial it is to live in the present, it's hard to accept that my present it was it is. Leaving it to a teen rom-com drama to tear me up. Ha. This one just really hits so close to home and I'm sad we didn't get to talk about this season together. I know you would have loved it.