Brooke and I went to a farmers market this morning. There was a woman that made jewelry out of books. All I could think about was how much you'd love that idea. Then we found this charm, and I cried. Would I have thought about getting it for you last summer? I don't know. But today? I wanted to get it for you so bad. All I can think about is what I could have done with more time. What I could/would have done differently. I think all the way back to our childhood and regret not pushing more for us to develop our relationship, all the way up to your last few days. Would this charm change anything? It's hard to keep seeing things that make me filled with regret instead of joy. I hope someday that changes.