Wow. Now how do I explain to you that Mary Zickus commented on my post about you? Losing you is so huge, but losing her friendship was probably the second largest loss of my life. How many times did we talk about her? I can't even count.

I felt happy seeing her comment. How did she find me? Was it random? Has she been watching me in some way? Why did she not reach out more directly? Can we maybe be friends again? Is it weird if I contact her? I mean ... I just want to talk all of this through with you. You seemingly brought Nicole and Kathleen back together, can you do it for me too? I miss you so much already. Sitting here trying to figure what advice you'd give me now.