I can't really sleep at night. I think it's my brain processing. I get that you're gone. I'm not in denial or having a hard time accepting it. I saw cancer take you. I saw you fade.

But we've had periods of time where we haven't spoken before. Like when I'm on vacation or you're traveling for work, for example. So the silence between us still seems temporary. While I know it's not true, in the back of my head I still think I can talk to you or see you. Like this is temporary. I don't understand how I reconcile this feeling. It's really just too hard to accept.